Showing posts with label Addiction. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Addiction. Show all posts

18.4.09

Nothing to Say?


** I speak in fiction **

I've nothing to say! I have no idea why? but lately I've nothing to say about anything at all...? why so why, I feel like I am at a point where I've hit my wall and I have to climb pass it to get to the next level of my own self awareness. I've reach the point that now I have to make the next move to advance myself pass the stage of comfort zone.
Poetry writing is the only experience I've been able to produce lately, through my twitter account that I've setup. I have no idea why I am even doing this social experiment on twitter. I am falling into the hive mentality for some odd reason. I guess I am like most animals that loves attention. Either that, or I feel alone in this world with my view of thinking. But how can I be alone when I know there is others around me that also have the same problem. Who knows? I feel strange inside that I want to know more for some odd reason. I need to know more information and more of it. Even though I know that; I know a lot of things that most of the average sheep doesn't understand and know. I still want to know more. Then something hit me, in the moment of wanting to know more and more....


I know I keep asking the questions over and over again in my head. But I know the answer already, but I seem to want to know the answer from other people even though I know enough for me to take the next step in life. But we always ask the questions anyways, even though we know the answer ourselves already. We seem like we want to just confirm our answer is correct by seeing if other people agree with the question we are asking. But if we see that the answer they give us isn't what we want to hear we distort the answer we get from other people and make it fit what we want in our very own reality. Why do we keep doing what we are doing. We do not need the answer from other people, we know the answer already. It is time for me to take the step. I've been slowly working away at my grand plan. Maybe after when the grand plan is completed I may have new insight on things to say. Till then I am on my quest to finish what I've started.



-DKnight-

23.3.09

We Got the Pill to Fix that Problem of Yours...


[Oh wow, look what I've came across today they have anti-depression pill for kids now... What the fuck do kids need anti-depression pills. How the hell did that happen kids getting depress. I remember when I was a kid it was so care free and just having fun all the time nothing to worry about. How on earth is kids now a days have depression is the grand plan working over time again? They are finally able to make kids think they have depression and need this drug that does more harm then good. People need to find the cause of the problem, by knowing the "how is this happening to kids" when they should have a care free life nothing to worry about no bills no nothing but just play and have fun and be a kid. But sadly to say we just want the quick fix because daddy and mommy don't care about finding the answer, they are too busy to take care of their own kids. They just want a pill to fix everything. Isn't that what we are thought in this world a pill will fix all your needs. How beautiful is that.. a pill to fix everything....

Do they make a pill to fix my money problem haha .. I will buy that haha]


Depression pill OK'd for kids but probe goes on
By Ransdell Pierson, Reuters

NEW YORK (Reuters) - Just weeks after prosecutors accused Forest Laboratories Inc of illegally marketing its anti-depressants Celexa and Lexapro to children and paying pediatricians kickbacks, U.S. health regulators have approved Lexapro for depression in kids.
Forest said Lexapro, its biggest product with annual sales of more than $2 billion, was approved by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration to treat major depressive disorder in adolescents aged 12 to 17 and as a maintenance therapy, meaning to maintain control of symptoms. It is already approved for adults.
But federal prosecutors have said that Lexapro and Celexa have long been used improperly to treat depression in children.
On February 25, after a five-year probe, the U.S. Justice Department accused Forest of wrongly attempting to sway pediatricians to prescribe Celexa and Lexapro, including inducements like spa visits, fishing trips and tickets to sporting events and Broadway shows. Neither drug had been approved for kids until Lexapro won the FDA's nod on Friday.
The federal complaint accused Forest of pushing aside a study showing that Celexa was ineffective for pediatric use and instead urging its sales staff to promote a second, more positive study.
The FDA on Friday approved Lexapro's use for adolescents based on favorable results in two clinical trials, one involving adolescents taking Lexapro and another involving children and adolescents taking chemically similar Celexa, Forest said.
But effectiveness was not shown in another pair of studies, Forest said, one a Lexapro trial involving patients aged 7 to 17 and the other a study of Celexa in adolescents.
Moreover, the company said on Friday that Lexapro's ability to maintain control of symptoms in adolescents had not been demonstrated.
But the FDA concluded that maintenance efficacy can be "extrapolated" from adult data and from comparisons of how Lexapro is absorbed among adults and adolescents, Forest said.
"A lot of these kinds of trials are not successful because it's very difficult to do depression studies," said Forest spokesman Frank Murdolo.
"But we have two studies that were successful" and will provide patients another treatment option, Murdolo said.
Lexapro, the 15th biggest drug in the United States by sales, is a derivative of Celexa, an older product that was once a blockbuster treatment but is now widely sold by generic drugmakers.
The FDA had approved Celexa to treat adult depression but declined to approve it for children.
The federal prosecutors, based in Massachusetts, last month said Celexa was no more effective than a placebo when taken by children or teenagers, and that more patients taking Celexa reported suicidal thoughts or attempted suicide.
They alleged that federal health care programs have paid "thousands of false and fraudulent claims for Celexa and Lexapro prescriptions that were not covered for off-label pediatric use and/or were ineligible for payment as a result of illegal kickbacks paid by Forest."
New York-based Forest said depression affects about 2 million adolescents in the United States and that Lexapro is only the second anti-depressant approved for such younger patients.

11.3.09

What Beauty do we have here?


** I speak in fiction **

Have anyone ever seen beauty before? I think I have tonight. It was beauty from the heart to the real world.
If you have hear(d) the notes I've seen tonight that was playing around inside my head. You will then understand what my world feels like to me, myself.
So who is my church? tonight?
The church tonight for me is in front of you all along but you were just too proud to admitted to seeing it. How do we fix ourselves for the better?
DeKn:TheSoulWriter

9.3.09

AngelS & DemonS ... ?

1/1 Angels & Demons DeKn

... Which one do you pick?

[Both, which ever one serves me be at that moment in time. I will not side with, either sided. For limiting yourself to one item you are forever trapping yourself.

Think about it...

The Eyes of the Unknown and Knowledge both looks at you from the darkness. You do not see it yet. But in time you will..., they were always in front of you you were just blind to see it. (see with your mind first then your heart will follow)

Your eyes was always there and will always be there. (Unless you are blind then sorry I can't help you move on please) So use it and learn from it. See through the Angel's eyes then; see through the Demon's eyes.

Pick the Best and walk that path]

4.3.09

Emptiness... All Around Us


Why is it so hard to let go of something that has been lost? Even with all the trainning we've been given it's still very hard to just lock up that emptiness you can feel inside yourself. Is it because we are a very social animals we live together in a big city close to one another. And even when we don't we have pets as companions. To take someone away from that social setting is almost like ripping their heart out. If that is the case why on earth is there so many anti-social programming out there in this world? Or is it ..., we just want to feel like we belong somewhere so we stick with our own kind. We feel safe in huge numbers. But was that a trainning a programming of some sort? Just like we all long for a soul mate some of us are just able to hold that emotion back and some just can't do it at all and go after anything that comes by.
The real question is are we just feeding off the emotion we get as a hit, and when the dealer stop giving out the hit we just feel like a crash of some sort the emptiness we feel all around us. Is just a crash from not having any more of the goodie drugs 'the emotion' we felt when we belong somewhere not worrying about anything because we felt safe, because we had our Daddy or Mommy protecting us from the monster under our bed. Is there a way to harness this wasted energy from our soul? maybe even use it to help us push ahead to what we always dreamt we wanted for ourselves.
A way to use this wasted energy. Maybe you can try to transform it to another form of energy I've been able to do that now and than. But it never always worked 100% I've noticed the very strong emotion was the harder to alter. I've even try to place on top of the existing emotion with other emotion and stacking the emotion on top of each other, first with one emotion then I would try to stack another one on top of that one until the emotion I didn't wanted faded. Or other times I would use the emotion as a way to push myself to move onward to do what I needed to do to get out of the current situation I didn't like. That also worked for me and I found anger was the best motivator for me to push myself forward. I've also noticed the positive emotion helped me think better. The negative ones was a good pusher (push me to do something to change my way) or motivator for me.

Try to map your own emotion and used that energy for something better. instead of wasting it. be as one with your intellect and emotion. Do not try to fight one or the other the out come will just get you no where I've been there done that got the t-shirt for it. Now my next goal is trying to be able to do this at will without having to let the emotion naturally happen be able to call forth which ever emotion pleases me. That is another step of my life I will have to figure out how to do it.

3.3.09

To Be, or Not to Be Addicted? That is the Question?




















Addiction is your choice. You were never forced into doing something you didn't want to. You're the only person that control your very own energy no one has that power over your very own energy. So you can say that is the only real ownership you have in this Universe . But they can influence you into choosing something you don't really need but you want it anyways. By using something very basic about yourself, that if you know about it..., you would kick yourself in the ass because it was so easy but you made it out to be so hard.

FEAR

That is it, it was always that, a well placements of fear programs in your system.... or better yet; put it, in your mind. They have the command word setup, so that when you encounter those speical events that is in reality the fear program kicks in and execute itself... to cause you to change course or else you will feel big time fear

....Insert your very own fear here ....
"Mommy..., mommy, I am scare of this man he scares me mommy can you make him go away"

the program will never harm you. What is the number one rule of this world; the LAW of this Universe is I will not cuase harm to myself. So the program can never harm you. You just think that it can so you stay away from it. You are addicted I am sorry to tell you.

You my dear enlightened ones, you're addicted, to simply put it THE FEAR PROGRAamming has you. Have you ever wonder in the real world (I am talking about the place you and I are in NOW!) - RealitY -

Is there a reason for all those horror films that comes out each year? And if you look back more and more of the film are geting more and more..., graphic; the newer the film is the more the graphic imgery there is?




















So why is it so that those newer type of horror movies are so graphic? Because just like any drug addiction the more you use it the more you need to stay in the same level of high you were before when you first started.... and you know what the out come of this is?
At the end we will all O.D.

Then mother earth will get to feast, she is getting hungry she've been only able to sample a bit at a time. Now she wants the main course those
serving up .... 6.9 Billion humons

[This is a ture story, it happen to me today more like this morning. So I was hungry after eating breakfast in the morning this is while I was driving to work. I drove into a Mc Donald's Yes I know please don't say it I know... ok go ahead say it. hehe.
I bought a combo from there, it consisted of 1 egg mcmuffin and 1 hash brown and also 1 orange juice. But that isn't the point here. I hope I haven't lost anyone yet? Ok after eating all those shit I started to drink the juice and you know what?
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What scared the shit out of me..?
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The picture printed on the outside of the cup, and this cup was made for the KIDS it was a happy meal cup. on the cup was printed two pictures of kids showing fear (a picture of this girl opening her mouth like she is screaming at something she just saw scare the shit out of her. And another picture showed a kid looking up at something but had a terrified look in him like he just saw a ghost. Eyes wide open. So now they have cups scaring the shit out of your kids (if you had any)]

"Mommy, Mommy I want that happy meal toy NOW! or I am going to hold my breath until you give me that happy meal toy NOW!"

So they are already programming your humons at a very young age to accept THE FEAR PROGRAamming. Be aware please you have a choice to be Addicted to something or not... it is your choice.

Look at the picture below does that look like someone YOU know?




















"NO! Mommy I want my internet I need my fix Mommy"

[Yes I have to admit it myself also, that I'm also addicted to some things and I love it. I will never give it up for anything.]

So we all have our very own weaknesses, I know what it's about but I hide it very well from myself. And make all the excuses in the world about the addiction isn't there it's just me.

one final word .... to remember by:
















To Be, or Not to Be Addicted? That is the Question?

Baaa ..., Baaa cried the sheep

A Sheep cannot save Another Sheep
Because
How do you save someone that doesn't know how to save themselves first?
Answer
You Don't..., So both of you is really saving no one in return by trying to save someone now!
Question?
So why are Sheeps always trying to save another sheep?